The Consternation of the Subconscious Mind

It was getting late and I was falling fast asleep, into a peaceful slumber. And then, suddenly I awoke to a strange surrounding. It was daytime, several hours had obviously passed and I was oddly outside in a macabre setting. How I had gotten there was quite unknown to me. The sun was high, trees were all around and the figure of a filthy, vulgar man towered over me. With a half-smoked cigar gripped tightly in the corner of his mouth he asked me, “How ya likin’ that? Doesn’t it feel gooood?” As he finished his question, his speech became taunting as if he were playing some sort of twisted game.

Sweat and grime dripped off his forehead down to my face. I could smell his rancid breath filled with stale cigar smoke as he slurred each word. I quickly turned my head away from him. I could see that we were in a desolate place out in the middle of nowhere. I was alone with this societal reject who for some ungodly reason wanted to execute his perversion onto me. He had me laid out on my back on a hard surface, maybe a make-shift table or something, who knows…. and I was stiff, but not paralyzed even though the tingling sensation that coursed throughout my body caused me to feel numb. It was weird, like I had been drugged.

I struggled to move my arms and bellowed out. “WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?”

He erupted with a deep, guttural laugh, “HAHAHAHAHAHA… WHOOHOO!!!!” Laughing so hard that it caused him to stumble backwards, almost losing his balance, then he was back to me. Bending over, face to face with me again, as his eyes left mine he eerily led his gaze down to my stomach area. With his grisly smile he goaded, “You haven’t even noticed, have you?”

“Huh? What are you talking about?” I was confused, my vision blurred as I tried making sense of it all.

“LOOK!” He demanded.

I mustered enough strength, blinked a couple of times to clear my eyes and brought my attention to where he was talking about.

“OH MY GOD!!!!!” I screamed.

He laughed even harder and more sinister as the look of terror consumed me. My eyes were lain upon a horrendous vision, one so vile that to speak of it continues to unnerve me.

What I was seeing before my very eyes was one of the most gruesome acts I had ever seen, and it happened to me. It threw me into a world of shock. Apparently the disgusting man was getting off on it because he looked so elated as he jeered around.

“HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?! WHHYYYY?!?!?!” I cried. My hands reached down to my midsection, grabbing what I could to piece myself back together. I had been sliced open, from side to side, with my entrails emerging to the surface. Blood was all over me as my insides slipped between my fingers.

His depraved laughter continued as I attempted to gain my freedom. Still on my back with my body ripped apart, I tried pushing backwards with my feet to inch my way off the table.

“You can’t do it! Look at you! HAHAHAHAHA…..” He roared.

Then, “PLOP!” My body fell to the ground. I moaned in agony as my back cracked with pain, but I didn’t let that stop me. While this revolting man continued to laugh, he casually wiped the sweat from his brow with his dingy white tank top. He was clearly enjoying watching me suffer for he knew I wouldn’t get far due to the dreadful state that I was in.

With each minute inch that I moved, so did my exposed intestines as the blood pulsated outward. I arched my back upwards to keep everything off the dirt and ground below, and just like a contortionist, I tried crawling backwards to get away. I looked ahead in my upside-down position, hearing his heckling behind me, knowing that I would eventually have to give up. I knew in my heart that there was absolutely no way that I was going to escape this wretched hell that I was in, but I had to at least try to survive.

 

 

 

It was in that moment that reality finally kicked in and I woke up. Everything that happened above was merely a nightmare. Thank God! It bothered me so much that I found it hard to go back to sleep. I went to work the next day feeling drained and offbeat. This was a few nights ago and I still can’t shake the vivid imagery of the dream. It was so real…  the colors, the surrounding, the intense fear. What would provoke me to have such a horrible nightmare? I’ve conducted dream interpretation before in the past, not just for myself, but for others as well. However, this one continues to bother me. Did I watch something disturbing prior to drifting off to sleep? Nope. Did I have a crazy conversation the day before pertaining to anything similar? Nope. So, what could it have been? Just some randomness played out by my subconsciousness?

The human psyche is a complex one, one that is so diverse that it leads to insurmountable inquiry.

 

 

 

 

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Interview with empath/soul treader, Kelen

Today I’m welcoming empath/soul treader, Kelen, owner of http://www.unwanted-around.com/. Thank you, Kelen for stopping by!

 

 

Tell us about yourself.

I’m 38 years old, born in the east of France, I’m living in Canada since 3 years 1/2 now. As a lonely child, I was very calm and scared like hell about almost everything, I always thought the song “Fear of the Dark” had been written for me…Later, I studied psychology, learned about occult sciences, paranormal, stepped into meditation, Zen, crystals, cards, auras, Buddhism, symbols and dreams analysis almost ten years ago, I developed my empathic accuracy that works now with people, animals and houses.
I was raised in a catholic family and attended private catholic schools, nobody asked my opinion at that time, I rejected all kinds of religion and found myself in what I call “a way of mind and soul” with Buddhist philosophy. I discovered my psychic empathy very young, without really knowing about it… life of a souls treader…

 

 

Your website is called Unwanted, http://www.unwanted-around.com/. What was the driving force behind its creation?

 
At the beginning I didn’t even think about sharing my “gift” or helping people, I wasn’t sure about my feelings, if it was real or a trick played by my mind… First, I had to be sure that I wanted to deal with this part of me almost everyday, and then with people. I waited many years before I finally let myself in and use social media… I don’t like “clichés” and stereotypes as I use on my website, but sometimes you need to put popular words on what you’re dealing with. I don’t like to talk about ghosts or evil or spirits, those come from our fears, our ignorance about the unknown… for me it’s residual or intelligent energies, bad or good, stuck in our world or able to travel by vortex or portal. My strength is that I’m very comfortable with the two sides: very good or very bad, in bright light or darkness, life or death… duality is my soul mate in a perfect balance.
Unwanted sounds right to me, because everybody is afraid of the unknown, being disturbed by those kind of energies could be really unwanted… and I found it “catchy” 🙂

 

 

On your site you mention how you can feel the energies of the unexplained. What has that been like for you and how would you consider this ability, good or bad?

I guess it’s a family story, mixed with gypsy blood and bohemian origins on my father’s side, my great grandmother was a natural healer, the village “shaman”, her daughter was a tarot reader and passionate about occult sciences, my dad does astrology and has a very strong intuition…I grew up in Europe where houses can be 1000 years old, carrying a lot of energies and stories inside ..when I was younger I wasn’t sure about my perception, if it was a gift or a curse! It took me a few years before talking about it and starting to help people… Empaths are awake about their environment, energies, vibes… when you realize there’s something “different” inside you, you need to understand, it’s like learning a new language. For me now it’s having a kind of a permanent decoder and be able to “feel, hear and see” what’s behind.

 

 

Mind sharing with us some of your experiences and were they frightening or positive in nature, or maybe even both?

There’s two side on the coin, not more. Good or bad, light or darkness, positive or negative…
We have to deal with nice people or very bad people in life, residual or intelligent energies are alike.

I have a few stories and good or bad memories, but it’s usually good and positive experiences… especially with people I meet.
A funny one was the owners of a 200 year old house. They were sure that something wrong was moving the furniture and accessories in the house. It was an intelligent energy (precedent owner) who disagreed with the new decoration of the house, when I asked them if they wanted me to clean the house and make this entity leave, they said “no it’s not necessary, you know we get use to it and it’s very friendly, can she just not be upset every time we change furniture?”

Sad stories are connected with bad endings… violent death like suicide, alcohol trouble, violence, murder… the perfect cocktail to have residual energies.
I’ve never been physically attacked, but psychologically reached, destabilized a few times and scared… I had few experiences when I’ve been talked to, it always comes out of nowhere…

The last very sad one was a couple months ago when I was visiting a brand new shop of a friend of mine but in an old location. Everything was ok until I went to the back store. sadness took me down, I would throw up and cry immediately. I had to leave the room to feel better. I did the back and forward three times, same reaction… I finally found out what it was… a young woman, probably in her 30’s died, after sexual assault…
It took a medium and another souls treader to handle this case… I still have shivers every time I think about this place…

 

 

Also on your site you talk about the symptoms of having the presence of unwanted energies. What are some of the signs that people may experience?

There’s a lot of different signs, beside the water vs electrical problem (being watch sensation) or telluric fault (earth fault who can provide weird feeling) you may have those few experiences:
– You hear footsteps, tapping, or bumps
– You frequently experience cold spots, or a room temperature dramatically drops.
– You hear voices, music, or smells such as perfume or cigar smoke, or feel being touched somewhere on your body.
– You see shadows move across the room, or out of the corner of your eye.
– You often feel that you’re being watched or get that chilling feeling that makes your hair on your arms stand up.
– Items or furniture in your home move, disappear, then reappear frequently.
– Electrical appliances and/or lights turn on or off by themselves
– You see orbs, flashes of light, or mists.
– You or your kid see an apparition, your pets have a weird behavior
– You have a bad feeling or feeling anxious, nauseous in specific spots of the house.
– Or you simply moved to a new house and you want to be sure that it’s clean from negatives energies.

 

 

You even discuss dreams and symbols analysis. Share with everyone a little about that.

We spend almost one third or half of our lives asleep. I realized how important messages, symbols or others secrets in our lucid dreaming could be. The analysis is not a simple act as opening a dream dictionary and finding the meaning. Environment, feelings, sensations, people, light, location… every single part and details of the dream are related with the most important thing: symbols.
The most helpful way to understand is the analysis of these symbols hidden in the dreams. There’re strong messages in our unconscious life during the night, and some affect the daily one…
It took me a few years of research, analysis to understand my own dreams, now to provide advice and interpretations for people, reminds me how powerful dreams are in our spiritual leader life.
Tell me what you dream about, I’ll tell you who you are and where you’ll go!

 

 

Tell us about the types of services you provide and how can people contact you?

I do dream analysis as a consultant, you can reach me by phone or email, give me a few lines about your dream and I will provide a complete file with analysis, symbols and meaning.
For my principal “activity” it’s very simple: contact me by email, I will after a short interview and analysis, set an appointment at your place. I will walk around the house and let you know about my feelings.
If necessary, and only if, I will start a ritual:
– Cleansing complete house
– Cleansing owners / tenants
– Psychic protection and blessing
– Advice.
As you said earlier, I have my own website (home made) and I’m active on Twitter, Facebook, and recently (thanks to you) on wordpress..

 

 

What’s your advice when dealing with unwanted energies?

It’s very special, don’t try by yourself or with people who think they know. It’s almost like you’re sick and you want to cure yourself…
Stay away from internet advice, usually it’s the best way to make it worse.
Ghost Hunters are very popular, but beside the fact they want proof and a lot of views on youtube, they don’t really provide help, it’s more a hobby than anything else. I have a lot of respect for them, but as people can see in those “shows” when it starts to be excessively strong or powerful they ask for help! Mediums, psychics or souls treaders are the most qualified to do something really efficient and provide real help.
It could be a nice debate for a next interview : Ghost Hunters vs Souls treaders… at least we are powered by the same energy: the unknown! 🙂

Being respectful and well protected is the key. When those energies are very bad, malicious and powerful, only strong minds can avoid them. Another major risk: bringing it back with you…
A little tip: Think about cleaning yourself before and after, and believe!

 

 

Any positive words of wisdom?

As it’s written on my website, I’m grateful for every blessing the Universe has and will ever create for me!
I would like to sincerely thank you for your interest and your kindness!
Namaste.

 

 

 

 

Unwanted

“A Nightmarish Origin”

We’ve all had nightmares at some point in our lives. Several people are plagued with them as if they were in a film caught in some sort of terrifying loop destined to repeat itself while others are fortunate enough to hardly ever have one. Yet, we really don’t put much emphasis into the origin of the word “nightmare”. Many of us shudder at the mere thought of even considering it. So quick are we in wanting to forget such frightening visions, but the truth of the matter is that the word “nightmare” dates back from Old English times when the word “mare” referred to folkloric demons that terrorized people by sitting on their chests while the individuals slept, causing them to have haunting dreams. These so-called demons were often thought to be incubi and/or succubi. The prefix “night” was later added to articulate the dream condition.

Nightmares, as we all know, can cause us to awake abruptly in cold sweats with palpitating heartbeats. Sometimes they can be so disturbing and vivid that the horrifying dreams can linger in our minds all throughout the waking day. Studies report that they happen mostly during REM (rapid eye movement) sleep and that we are more apt to remember nightmares than we are the more pleasant dreams.

It’s interesting how the mind works, how each and every one of us reacts to something that can leave such an impact like a nightmare. They can be so daunting that nightmares can even lead to insomnia. What causes such startling hallucinations in our sleep? Several things actually from living a stressful life that one’s subconsciousness can weigh heavily on the slumbering mind, drugs like antidepressants can also contribute to nightmares and many people even claim having scary dreams after eating late night snacks.

A lot of times, nightmares (or any other kind of dreams for that matter) can reflect feelings that a person subconsciously may not even be aware that exists. For example, let’s just say that an individual has a nightmare that involves a threatening storm with a huge house crashing down upon them. Does it literally mean that this will happen to them in real life? Let’s hope not! But it could possibly symbolize that there may need to be a change in the structure of their waking life. However with this subject, it taps into the discussion of dream analysis and that’s a whole other topic.

The way our subconsciousness works can certainly be full of loaded questions with “one of a kind” answers for everyone is different in their own unique way. How we all handle things can be compared to fingerprints, there are no two that are just alike. I’ve had my share of frightening dreams, but the way I’ve dealt with them was by bringing them to life with paper and pen, giving birth to the poems and stories that I’ve so happily created.

 

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~ Sheila Renee Parker on Twitter @sheilarparker.